working on it

I'm really bored right now and I apologize for the rambling!


Joe's cousin has agreed to model for me for Bridal shots and I'm super excited!! Woo! She's actually divorced now, but she got married May of 2007 and she still has her dress, and besides, she's gorgeous and will be a great model. So now, I just need to get my dang camera! Hopefully the money will be waiting for us when we get back to Jonesboro, and I can go buy it before we take our 15-year-old niece to Memphis that weekend. We are going to the Peabody to see the ducks that Saturday morning (they do their thing at 11), then we're going to visit the Pink Palace Museum. On the way home we are taking a detour up to see Reelfoot Lake- which is where the river ran backward and made this lake. They have a sanctuary with eagles and owls and you can see them up close! I've always wanted to go there, but it never occurred to me just how close we are to it! So I'm REALLY hoping I have my camera for that. If I don't, I'll just take my MIL's Sony, which is better than mine, but still nothing fantastic.

Christmas was okay I guess. I'm really trying to think positively about it- but things are so sad to me this year. Part of it is because this is the 10th year without my mom, and that hurts. I feel guilty for being happy when she isn't around to be happy with me. Plus I haven't seen my brother in over two years, and he's just started calling me again and I'm pretty sure it's cause he wants money...well, I don't have any money to send him, and even if I did, Joe hates him and would be soooo pissed if he knew that I was helping him out. I don't blame him for hating him; if he wasn't my brother, I'd hate him too. He's done some really crappy things to me and I don't know why I forgive him.

Anywho, I really had my heart set on that little kitty being mine, and it didn't happen. I got a coffeemaker that I'm gonna take back to the store cause there is NOWHERE in my house to keep it. I want a coffee maker, don't get me wrong, but I don't want to have to unpack it everytime I want to use it, and we just don't have the space to keep it out on the counter. We don't even have cabinet space to put it away in the kitchen. So I'd have to keep it in the carport building and bring it inside...and I'm just not doing that. I wasn't gonna say anything to Robyn (Joe's mom) about it, but I thought about it all day yesterday and she told me that she almost didn't get it for me because of that reason and that I should take it back and put the money toward something else. So I think I'm gonna get a card for my camera instead.
I did get a new hair dryer, which is wonderful, and some dish towels. And candy. And Joe's aunt gave us a gift card to Wal-Mart, yippee!

Joe's mom really loves the knife we gave her, and I'm glad. It is a Cuisinart one, and I REALLY wanted to get one for myself, but they are kinda expensive! :) She is the most fun to shop for, cause if it's something I like, she'll love it too. So I just find something I want and we get it for her...that's exactly how we shop, too. Joe says, Okay, what do you want Anna? Then I go find it. haha