oh hell.

I'm so mad I could shit a brick.

Tonight was Joe's birthday dinner with his family. His mom invited people over, planned what we would have, ect...which is all quite nice, except how did she know that it was what Joe wanted??? She didn't. He told me last week that he really wanted to be in Jonesboro for this whole week, but that couldn't happen b/c we will have Sarah (15 year old niece) this coming weekend, and that would mean an extra trip, which we can't afford. So we stayed here. Joe is kind of a hermit, almost anti-social when it comes to family events. It's not that he doesn't like them, he just prefers being alone or with friends.

Well, I invited our friends Will and Hannah over tonight cause I knew Joe would really love that. He and Will are two peas in a pod, and I ADORE Hannah, so it was fun for me too :) they are a great couple. Robyn didn't seem to have a problem with it, and I just told her it was happening since she had taken over all the other arrangements, I figured I wouldn't ask permission for this to happen- and why should I? It's not like we are 12.

So anywho, we ate dinner, Hannah and Will got here, and the four of us watched some youtube in the bedroom while everyone else was milling around the house...then we all had cake, and the four of us were in the dining room still and most everyone else had gone outside to smoke. So we were just hanging out, but the youngest niece, Ashley, was being really loud and driving us nuts and Joe didn't look like he was having much fun, I sure wasn't, and Hannah really wanted away from the 8 year old. So we decided to go hang out somewhere else.

I found Robyn, told her what we were doing, and she didn't look too happy about it. I didn't think she'd be MAD tho, but apparently she was. She told Joe we were being rude for leaving a party. Nobody else was talking to us anyway (they NEVER do), neither of us enjoy being at these family events, and they weren't there because it was Joe's birthday- they came because there was free food and cake. That's how they are.

And besides, we haven't seen Will and Hannah since August. So if Joe wants to spend his birthday with them, why the hell would she say anything about it?!?! It pisses me off.

I just really want to go back to Jonesboro. I'm thinking about getting Sarah to go with us on New Year's Day, and just say, "well, she gets an extra day there with us!" and making it sound like we are doing it for her benefit. I can't stand this anymore. When I come up to do photoshoots next month I think I'm gonna go stay with my old foster parents. I love Robyn and Truman, I really do. But it's getting to the point where I am so used to how we live at home that I can't stand being here for very long. They eat dinner super late, and they fry everything, and the dog smells....